July 2025
During a mediation, I had very uncomfortable and unwanted feelings. I allowed the feelings to realise themselves and did not resist them. I acknowledged that ‘control of fears’ was something that appeared positive. Yet these were inextricably linked to duality feelings of ‘unbridled fear’ or ‘fears out of control’ akin to all being lost and on the edge of a panic attack. I was scrabbling to seek some ‘kind of control’ or ‘rationale’ but to no effect. After some love and stillness, the struggle ended. This part of my psyche accepted that ‘seeking to control’ created the opposite effect. Fear could not ultimately be controlled or manipulated for our benefit. The acceptance of this realisation meant fear’s power over me subsided because I accepted that I had no power over it and it had no power over me.
Maybe the irony was that it became a powerful liberation.
Arcturian Orlacka previously said our ‘need’ to hold to fear and self-judgment are subconscious programs that are being deleted. It is still our choice to let these drivers go when we see them for what they are. I’m not saying all mine have gone or there is nothing more for me to do. But transition feels as if it has a foothold. The vibrations are beginning to feel very different.
The depths of our psyche are being stirred and long hidden patterns seen. You may feel angry but you do not need to be angry – you may feel fear but it doesn’t mean you have to become afraid. If these feelings arise show them your love and understanding.